2005-12-03
10:56 p.m.
I'm feeling moody and annoyed.
Maybe I need to get out of the house.
Unfortunately, my next opportunity to get out of the house brings me to work. I've been tired of where I work for years. I just want to sleep. Pretty much all the time.
2005-09-14
2:50 p.m.
i am in trouble.
apparently i'm about to be deregistered on friday for nonpayment of my term bill (which i really, really, really can't pay.) i'm currently scrambling for a loan, and hopefully i'll have all of that in order relatively soon, so that i can re-register as soon as possible.
i haven't been to class since monday from missing trains, running stupid errands on the other side of campus from where i'm supposed to be and general suckage at life.
i thought i was finally going to have everything relatively in order now that i've got my federal work study job all settled, but apparently in all my rushing around after trains, after books, after sleep, and through unintentionally self-imposed malnutrition, i forgot one very important thing: PAY THE STUPID BILL.
and now i'm going to be deregistered at noon on friday.
i'm not worried about my parents knowing - hell they found out twenty minutes ago after i left the student accounting office, biting my nails and cursing myself for giving up smoking. my father said he would cosign on the loan for me. he wasn't even all that upset about it because, frankly, he's made much larger screwups in life than i have. my brother, on the other hand, will probably beat me senseless if i don't quickly square this away before he finds out. a completely odd concept, i know, but it's the sort of unexplainable relationship i've always seemed to have with my family.
tonight i start my office monkey job in the counseling office. i went in last night to settle my paperwork. after quietly observing one of my fellow federal work-study students while waiting to meet with the dean, learned two very important things:
1) you are not allowed to study during work-study.
2) what you CAN do is spend most of your time at a desk, messing around on facebook, text messaging in plain view of your supervisor, and occasionally answering the phone. this is a dramatic change from life at the video store (i still work there, too. i have no life and i like free movies), where there are usally always things to do and late night hours to do them in. the couseling office closes promptly at 8.
everyone in the office seems to be very nice, though, and there's no dress code.
last saturday, about 9 or 10 of us gathered at crapplebees for overpriced drinks and half-priced appetizers, which somehow balances out in the end, i'm sure of it. it was a lot of fun, and i hope to organize one of these gatherings at least once a month. weekends out and about are now few and far between as well as a big, huge luxury for me. but, i miss seeing my friends and eating food that i don't have to drink out of a can and supplement with caffeine pills. (by the way, rutgers' college ave campus is all hills and stairs, so if i'm going to have to starve myself and take endless uphill hikes in the name of academia, i'd damn well better lose a few pounds by the end of the semester or i'm going to fucking cut somebody.)
off to psych class. might as well attend class while i still can.